Well, I had big dreams to keep writing on this blog to share my story. I wanted to share the IMPORTANT information (and still do.) I have plans to continue what I started a year ago this September leading up to the Brain Bolt 5k, since that plan apparently worked pretty well last time.
So in the coming month you can read about the who's who of famous survivors (that I know of!) You can expect a long post that I have to completely start over on (because my aneurysm addled brain just deleted my first draft! Grrr....) I'll be catching you up on everything that's been happening and that is going to happen in the coming months with me.
But for now, I wanted to type a quick note about a thought I had. Like I've said before, I had no idea what was happening to me when it happened. The closest I knew about an aneurysm was the slang expression "don't have an aneurysm" when someone was going off about something or other.
This expression really bothers me now, with the knowledge I've gotten. Having an aneurysm is something that you can do little to prevent, unlike some diseases. There are changes in diet, exercise and medication that can alleviate worst case scenarios with a lot of other diseases, but an aneurysm is a surprise. You can scan for it, if you and your doctor persistently opt scanning, but even if you find one, there's nothing to do to reverse course without brain surgery. Even if you go through with surgery, it's always there. My aneurysm is not active, which is excellent. But unlike a tumor, it can't be removed, so I continue to have blind spots in my left eye.
Yes, I'm always going to have an aneurysm. And sometimes it may be the reason I fly off the handle, because the brain is delicate. Personalities change when you mess with it, and that's okay.
